The Well Fed Artist

Song For Sienna

2009-10-25T06:49:08Z

Brian Crain... heard this song today on my Pandora Chill station....

Has a lot of my favorite artists, most are what i consider pretty soft and relaxing. Heavy piano influence, syth vocals, and such. Coldplay, Aqualung, Etc... I added Hans Zimmer recently, because I love him... unfortunately most of my favorite composers don't show up on Pandora.
But this guy popped up. Really liked it... Now I want to find a few more... really liked him.

Look At The Stars, Look How They Shine For You, Everything You Do, Yeah, They Were All Yellow

2009-09-11T01:12:30Z

I came across some interest freeware today, thought I'd give a shout out.

Open office is a wonderful piece of software, almost as awe inspiring as Linux. And I don't just say that because Linux has a penguin as a mascot. ;)

http://www.openoffice.org/

It competes, or rathers kicks microsofts ass because, well, lets just say it... It's cheap.. Hell, I stand corrected... It's free!!!

Which certaintly takes the cake in regards to a certain someone's plus 100 dollar software which usually only covers three or four software programs.

While Open office, does not!

And I loved that. My Word 07 ran out of it's free trial on a newer laptop of mine, and I got fed up waiting on a sale of microsoft or shopping for that exclusive student discount that appears once in a blue moon.

I emailed my schools software/technical department, and they pointed me to open office. Oh how the gods shined on me when I visited the website. I almost cried! Six magnificent programs wrapped into one neat happy package waiting for me to open, or rather download. I really only needed three of them, but still, Christmas came early for this happy go lucky girl.

And it's not like they weren't compatible with my previous documents. No crazy errors, or pages and pages of jumbled blocks and letters. Just simple conversions. And I can still send documents to people, it opens fine on their computers with their word program.

So, if you're fed up with the man, or simply looking for the better deal, check them out. They've worked out a lot of the kinks, and a newer version is actually due soon. Keep you fingers crossed.

http://www.openoffice.org/

There's A She Wolf In Your Closet... Open Up And Set Her Free

2009-09-04T08:31:28Z

There are times when you want to reflect on your life, look back and see all the good you've done. All the bad.

Me?

I just want to party like it's 1999 baby!

Haha... but really... I've been thinking lately... which is never a good sign. What the hell am I doing? Really? I'm going through the motions, not really taking time to think about where I'm going, let alone where I've been...

And for what? To do what is "right"?... What's "normal"?

Go to school. Graduate high school. Go to college. Graduate. Find a job. Settle down. Have a family. Retire. Die.

Seems a bit... Well, a bit.

I want more. I don't want to find the happiness in the little moments, I want to celebrate the big bang.

I want to look back in five years and be flabbergasted on where I was today. And where I am tomorrow.

But what is it that I want. I don't know.
I don't know where I belong. Where to be, who to be, what to be.

So many questions, So many concepts, So many thoughts.

I wonder about this bullet train that I call a brain. One day will I wake up and realize that it had been replaced by a bullet train?

If I died today, would I be remembered? Yes, I supposed I would be. But what about ten years from now? Ok, family will remember. Twenty years? How about fifty? Or lets go for the kicker. How about two hundred. No one would be around still that would have known be and remember me.

I want to leave my footprint. A good footprint.

I want the world to know me. Know I've done good. Can be good. Am good.

Humbled... Feeling Like I've Been Doing A Handstand My Whole Life And I've Finally Righted Myself

2009-09-02T12:01:26Z

Today I watched The Soloist. It really made me reevaluate my life and how I viewed others. I also read a few blogs, articles, and other scraps related to homelessness. I am humbled. Truly. If you get an opportunity to view this under credited work of art based on the true story of Nathaniel A Ayers and Steve Lopez, please do.

When I'm driving, especially downtown, I tend to see a lot of homeless people. A few of them catch my eye and I feel compelled to help them. If I have a few dollars on my I try and give them something, but usually I want to give them food, because, in my superior attitude, I feel like money might be wasted on alcohol, or drug addictions. But who am I to judge? Who am I to feel superior?

I feel like I've been doing a handstand my whole life and I've finally righted myself. The rush of blood to my head is drowning me, pounding at me, I feel dizzy.

If someone, homeless or not, has an addiction, I have no idea what caused this. Whether there is a legitimate source of their addiction or not, it is not my position or duty to judge. And for that matter, it is not a matter for me to deem legitimate or not.

I am in no position to judge.

Nor am in any way superior.

Homelessness is not a fantasy, a release from the daily bonds of "life", or a lazy way out.

It is a difficult, violent, frightening, hungry, cold, hot, criminal (deemed by stupid laws and society), painful life that is usually thrust upon a person.

As I looked up sights on homelessness, I saw many how-to's. From people with experience, or from people who were at risk and it was more of a plan in case they lost their home. These accounts, all of them, humbled me. Even if it was just a checklist. It made me realize how our lives can be reduced to a few clothes, blanket, and a toothbrush.

But then there were other sights. Of people asking advice to become homeless, for whatever reason. I'm not going to lie to you. In the past, when I was younger, running away was a beautiful idea. A fantasy of freedom, escape, happiness, and above all safety and security. How wrong I truly was. A thought I grew up to know even before now. But some of these people want to "experience" it because they feel sheltered, or it seems cool, or whatever.

I understand the religious groups who go on retreats, or the people who need to find themselves, or the people who know it will humble them. But not the 17-21 group who think, "this will be soooo awesome".

If I ever got the opportunity, I would try to be homeless for a month or so. But not because I think it will be awesome. But to further understand the people I live with. Because there are homeless in almost every major city. I live in the same city with people who all have a story. Who all have a past. Who all have a future. Whether it is to remain on the streets on their own free will or to find a new way of life. Neither is the better choice. It is only an individual choice. But I would think giving up my life for a month, couldn't harm me. Choose a part of the city I think I could survive in. Live out of my car. Know what it's like to survive on the basics. Forgo worldly goods.

In India, many people go on treks such as this. Its a common and ancient practice. For weeks, months, years. It depends on when their spiritual journey has ended. But here, it's homelessness.

Either way, I am humbled.

I have walked to the edge of the cannon, I have looked, but I have not fallen. Instead, the winds carried me gently down and I realized there are many ways to climb down and up a cliff. It only matters what you view as the cliff.

I'm Not The Average Girl From Your Video

2009-04-13T16:44:34Z

I rock!!!! I totally just completed an essay that I was supposed to be working on forever and half in only an hour and a half! And i did all the research! Yay philosophy!

R.I.P Andy Hallet

2009-04-03T21:28:47Z

On March 29 a great actor died and I am truly sad for his young passing.

Cause I'm Bluffin With My Muffin

2009-03-15T05:58:30Z

Oh god... so, I realized that even though I may not be a hardcore gamer like some people I know... and love! But, I still enjoy my fair share of all nighters.. which turn into all weekers... hahah... but this comic has me mesmorized! I've been reading this from start for the past few days and I can't get enough!!!!!!!!

CTRL+ALT+DEL

I salute you!

http://cad-comic.com/index.php

Look at it full size!!!!! Or zoom in... whatever is easier for you...

This is a frickin high-larious comic. Absolutely love it... There is whit, charm, absolute randomness, some insanity, enough references to games to keep you in stichs... basically my life... hahahaha.... anyways, thought i would give this comic a shout out...

Since I'm on the topic of comics... I'm gonna shout out one of the local comics, usually found in my schools satirical newspaper...

Dante's Residential is another rather funny and intelligent comic.

While I'm at it, let me take the time to also congratulate all the wonderful comics that have graced us, including the ones that have sadly left us for the big comic strip in the sky.

Calvin and Hobbes, I would live in this strip
Farside, another one that we lost ::cries a little::
BC... I have to admit this one... it's a tad bit dry... well, i'll admit, rather dry indeed, but something about this comic makes me want to keep reading
Dilbert, of course! hahah
Frank and Ernest
Even garfield!
Rose is rose, god, I love that little cat
Peanuts
Wizard of id

Mexico Is Like America... On Opposite Day

2009-03-11T05:39:24Z

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fsc = forced secret comrades
fsc = forgiven sacred drought
fsc = fuck sass cum
fsc = framing starts crazy
fsc = frivolous secretious cretin
fsc = fracous schmedley of clarinets
fsc = freakish sniveling cutworm
fsc = fairy souling cravens
fsc = frequent satisfying craps
fsc = fondle sequins carefully
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Were Lacking Something.... Something Good...Is This All For Nothing

2009-03-05T23:56:50Z

Earlier i made a list of all the things that I would never regret and why I don't have regrets. Here is a new list to add to that:

Cran-grape moments
Taquito sabotage
The making of corn mayo
Catchphrase madness
So... We are on the sidewalk
So... how DO you do the stanky leg
Toaster strudel upsetting
Midnight Sims parties
Dead and Gone cry fest
Kiss Me Through The Phone
Hey Solja Boy
5 am walmart fights
Waiting out a cop stakeout for a party, pitch black in a bathroom
Almost beating up the crab
Gaining a bad-ass reputation
Kidnapping Nicoliolio (Pringles)
Broken nose's courtesy of Chili Bowl
Megavideo... WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! You want me to pay WHAT?
Best night ever in austin = 200 pictures
Boner guy
Casper... sit down
Midnight Taco Bell run... prettiest smile
Where's My Taco Bell Big Box
R.I.P. Cuppy
Flying drinks... Zach got what he deserved
You're Making Me Wet
I Would Totally Go Down On Someone For This Salt
Lesbian Erotica Dreams.... (btw, Megan... don't ever dream of me again)
Harry Potter Wet Dreams
Feelers!
Stuck between a fish and a loud place! hahaha
Pringles Tripped, Fell Out Of Her Clothes, Hit Her Head, and Fell On Drew
Don't Trust A Ho

All I Need Is Space and Time

2009-02-26T10:40:54Z

I've Been Traveling On This Road Too Long, Just Trying To Find My Way Back Home

2009-02-13T02:31:26Z

So lately, life has been, meh... a flurry of work, school, and sleep... somewhere in there I find time to breath and eat, but most of the time, it's difficult. I'm excited, gonna go down to Austin this weekend! Yay! Finally gonna see Gevey again... I haven't been there in forever... it's sad. But a lack of car last semester totally killed me. Anyways, hopefully, I'll be down more often this semester. Today was crazy. I was supposed to wake up at like 8 and write my speech so I could practice all afternoon. No... instead I woke up 20 minutes before my 11 o'clock class. After trying to make it through that boring ass class, I wasted an hour just listening to music. It's amazing how easily doing that can run through an hour :( So, hurried and finished my speech and power point and ran to make it to present it. I was still late, but whatever... I think I did okay and that's all that matters.

In dorm news... my frickin room is ridiculous. I'm gonna clean it tonight and tomorrow cause I don't have class. I'm gonna try to get some pictures up on my wall and get this thing done so I can enter the whole cool room contest thingy... And plus, the room is becoming hazardous to our health if it continuous this way...

So posters or images I want on my wall:
Pictures of friends
T.I. (he is fine as fuck!)

Nuttin but stringz

Disney Stuff
Pixar Stuff
And then an entire section dedicated to vintage...

But I don't think I'll waste time putting up posters that I'm not gonna frame cause I don't wanna waste money on a poster and have it fucked up later.. you know..

So maybe I'll just buy some canvas's and paint my own stuff

She Falls Apart.. By Herself

2009-01-22T18:30:35Z

Oh god.. back in school... hating it... but loving it... and my new roommate is megers so thats exciting! And we are gonna do up the whole fricking room!!! It's gonna be sick! But what's funny... my room is an absolute mess right now... we have so much shit.. but like we don't wanna clean it all up and stuff... so I'm super sad but excited because our room is gonna be so sick!!!! Haha! I can't wait to put up pictures! Anyways... i miss people already but I'm cool... anyways... I'm tired and I gotta start cleaning.. there are some crazy ass pictures that I should put up... haha! Loves!

I Drove All Night... To Get To You

2008-12-29T18:38:11Z

So... yesterday sucked so much... cramps were killing me so I didn't do anything... I didn't bake with pipster, or lunch with Alex, or play with dwi dwi or sar sar when they came over... I was such a drag... but I was in pain!!!!! I'm sowy! Haha... anyways... sorta bored now and in the mood to do stuff, but I'm probably going to just clean up my mom's room today... it's a disaster.. clothes everywhere! haha... it's not her fault though, when we moved in, we dumped stuff in her room for now reason... so its finally time to make her room livable!

My dear Lizzie. I've come to tell you the news. Mr. Collins and I are... engaged.

2008-12-27T16:34:01Z

So... back in San Angelo... the drive here was crazy! First off all... mom wanted some chinese... on a road trip... weird? right.... anyways... so we found a place in kerville and ordered it and picked it up on the way. Then... guess what? My frickin tire decided to die on me... the threading just ripped right off! So... had to fix the tire, thank god I had a spare and a jack... and a nice old couple stopped to help us! The little old man wouldn't let me do anything, he did it all! They were so wonderful. Got to work late and harried, but that's ok. Now... just got a new tire put on and I'm gonna show my mom around town and then we're off, right back home! Yay! And... I'm getting much much much better at this stick shift! Yay me!

Sidenote: It Really Shouldn't Be Called A Bee Line... It Should Be An I Line

2008-12-21T21:54:25Z

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! New car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Like NEW cars! haha.... I mean... its not really new new... it's a 2000 but it beats my piece O crap cougar that is gay and what not... So yay! It is a standard... but I'm learning and I'm happy with that! It's a car, it goes vroom, and it's going to be all mine!

Yay!

Oh The Agony Of It

2008-12-20T10:16:28Z

Guess... what... came... back... in... stock... just... now!!!!!! The fricking thing from walmart and its going to be discontinued so I'm really tempted to just buy both but I just bought something else so I have like 20 dollars less than I need and I'm really really sad!!!!!! SUCKY!

I Decide How I Live, I Decide Who I Love

2008-12-20T10:05:46Z

So... YAAAAAAAAY! I got a monitor that has a tv as well... its nice... and different. One thing for two functions... and actually it has a built in dvd player so thats nice... less clutter and less chords... And if you think about it.. in a dorm room this little nifty creature is great! I was sad at first because the one from walmart which was like 100 dollars less kinda sold out... but this one does have the built in dvd player... but still.. we'll see... if the dvd player dies like some people say it does then I'll take it back and buy the one from walmart... and maybe I'll even get the bigger one which is still cheaper than the one I have now... I'd have to buy a dvd player... but maybe not since its hooked up to my computer... hence a dvd player! haha... anyways... listening to Avril's version of I Will Be... I guess the original version... I still like the Leona version, but I prefer this... I don't know why she didn't sing this and gave it to Leona... it sounds better with Avril... haha... anyways... Good night... rearranged my room again because my crazy roomie I guess came up from Austin like a freak and moved her stuff into my room... so had to make some room and move stuff around... but it's still pretty open and cool... what with the turning her bed into a sofa and using her desk as like a vanity... pretty nifty that there is all this extra room now... Will put up pictures later

Contagious - Avril Lavigne

I Will Be - Avril Lavigne's Original Song

I Will Be - Leona Lewis's rendition

I Will Be - Avril and Leona (I guess this is the best version since it mixes the best of both worlds!)

Some Live For The Bill, Some Kill For The Bill

2008-12-17T07:53:13Z

So... have a couple of options right now... there is this nice tv/moniter coming for like 200... i just spent like 140 on a smaller moniter... so if i return it i can get the tv and moniter for only like 80 more... which is a great deal... and then I'd be set... but the problem is... i gotta return the moniter first... which means no computer for like a week while i wait for the moniter/tv to come in... sigh.. confused... i'm thinking that maybe i should wait for my paycheck on friday... but then what if its gone by then? I'm confused about it... sigh... oh well...... I think I'll wait today to see if I get my refund later... if not... i guess i'll just have to live a week without a computer.. i mean... I'll have access from the school library and such... but still.. no late night fun :( So yay! We picked secret santa's!!!!!!!!!!! So... I'm tired.. and bored... and missing everyone...

Let It Go, Let It Roll Right Off Your Shoulder, Don't You Know, The Hardest Part Is Over, Let It In

2008-12-16T06:54:22Z

So... have you ever found yourself falling slowly but madly and horribly in like? Sigh... i don't know what to think anymore... I mean... how can you expect anything when you are soooooo far away? Really? I hate that because I don't know if I could do long distance... i really don't wanna... but yet... I've begun to think about him consistently and constantly and it bugs me!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH... because I said I really didn't like him and yet I find myself more and more attracted to him... and I do love talking to him and I trust him... and he's really really sweet... and sometimes funny... but usually more like i laugh at him.... haha! no... i really really think i might like him... but you know how that might affect me? cause i don't... and what's weird... he makes me nervous to talk about that... I've never had a problem telling someone I thought was cute or something... or the opposite.. a hell no! but... now, I find it difficult to say anything.. like this to him...

And I Found In My Pocket A Little City

2008-12-14T07:07:24Z

Hmmm... saddness for my bestie... and her ex boy man friend... they broke up... well... actually she broke up with him and I felt really bad for him. He's been messaging me about it... and I feel bad for him... like really bad... its just cause she needs some space... and now he's trying to make up for everything he never did... which just makes it worse. He's pushing when he should be just letting her be... sigh... oh well.. he'll figure it out
Can't wait till the end of next week... pay day and school money coming in... can take caer of some business
Also excited bout rearranging my room seeing as there is a lack of roommates and what not

Will put up pictures when I can

Baby Will You Be My Corona And Lime... And I Will Be Your Main Squeeze

2008-12-13T19:55:15Z

So... excited cause last night I actually hung out with my bestie nic nic... I've missed her and it sucked that I didn't know anything about her boy problems until I saw something on facebook... sigh... I don't want to be that friend you know... so we talked.. and I'm happy! We just talked, watched tv, were fatty's and just had fun... and then I passed out till like 1pm today! haha... Such a lazy ass.... anyways.... So... I wanna get some professional pictures of my friends... even like the 8$ pictures at walmart or something.. but it would be fun if I knew someone who took pictures.... I think my mom knows someone.... I'll figure it out. But that would be pimp... actually have some great pictures of everyone (not that pictures I have aren't awesome... and pretty funny too! haha) but, it would be cool to have some "professional" ones.. you know? That's something i wanna do when I come down.

You Didn't See Anything,,,

2008-12-12T20:00:22Z

So... I'm sooo excited.. because ASU started this new program for the freshman applying next year (AKA my brother)... he'll be covered for tuition and what not.. if I think it'll cover even like his room and board it'll be double awesome because then he can finish his core classes for free... and start saving up for when he transfers somewhere else... and plus... that would be double awesome for me!

I Am A Pirate You Are A Princess

2008-12-12T11:16:00Z

So.. I've got some older posts that make up the gap from May until now... They are from facebookers... So here goes:

September 24, 2008
REGRETS

To live a life of regrets would be to undo all:
The first kisses
The best friends
The imperfect families
The Patty melt moments
The taco sauce splatters
The kidnapping times
The goals in life
The notebooks from high school
The crazy halloweens
The 2000 texts in a month
The DDR parties
The getting kicked out
The competitions
The drama
The meeting new people
The stupid fire drills when you're just about to go to sleep
The karoake nights
The missed pets (RIP Snowy)
The still here and awesome pets (BELLA!)
The late night movie parties
The banana walmarts
The chocolate covered starfish
The scholarships
The Japanese candy
The Sea World moments
The Kodak moments
The billion and one sneezes from Drea
The Fiesta Texas Debauchery
The roommate switches
The clothes switching
the fake tattoos
The depressed Saturdays with tears and chocolate ice cream
The 3am phone calls
The urban dictionary randomness
The batcave madness
The killed off and not cared for pets
The skinny dipping
The study room lock ins
The played with pictures
The "coolhhhhhwhip"
The schlitterbahn hallucinations
The "you didn't think I was that fast"
The talking to sienna
The "I'm a cat"
The making fun of people who pretend to skinny dip
The bowling nights
The foot-popping kisses
The walking around barefoot
The multitude of jobs
The being thrown off a bunk bed times
The "SO WhAT! I'm a rockstar" songs
The other people passing out in your bed
The watching stupid people all night to make sure they don't die
The "I'M AWAKE"
The pointing-fingers-like-the-evil-monkey
The drunken kisses
The current phases
The Harry Potter midnight showings.... only 3 left:(
The talking behind peoples back
The scary noises in the night
The suspensions
The "BACK UP, BACK UP"
The graham partying
The reaching 1000 pictures for the first time
The midnight talks
The flirting
The taking care of drunky's all night
The running from cops
The band nerds
The gum smacking
The random spazzing in bed
The crawling up stairs
The crazy clothes you'll buy and never wear
The strawberry kisses
The LOTR midnight showings
The getting caught doing something bad ;)
The falling up stairs
The first love
The "I Wanna Love You" by The Maine song
The pulling all nighters
The keeping each other awake
The Fuzzy grapes
The butterflies in your stomach
The stage fright
The heartbreak
The awkward moments
The stuffed pepper corn applesauce
The lemon peppered butts
The top of the food chain
The sneaking around
The bottom of the food chain
The penguin phenomenon
The avoiding butler
The water bottle fights
The rush of a hungry kiss
The breakups
The getting talked about behind your back
The one hot night in July
The hitler mustaches
The midnight "Dark Knight" showing
The losing friends
The gaining friends
The facebook chatting while the person is in the room
The rolling on the floor
The crazy videos
The stupid pictures
The charlied nights
The french fries in your frostie days
The shopping cart races
The bucket list
The sinful moments
The passionate times
The fights
The laughs
The cries
The jokes
The good
The bad
Without all of this, I'm not who I am today. These factors make up my life, who I am, what I do, the choices I will continue to make. I wouldn't trade my memories for any thing in the world... thus.. regret is not a factor in my life

September 22, 2008
RANDOM SURVEY

A-Z Survey

A - Available: Hmmm.... Okay
A - Age: Purple and a Half
A - Annoyance: In reality.... My Annoyance just moved Out!!!!

B - Bestest Friend[s]: Do You Wanna Be Mine?
B - Birthday: Dec 3rd, 2008... thats my next one

C - Crush: Haha... I like what Lauren put... "crush what? HULK SMASH"
C - Car: Tis non existent or should I say dead... what remains is but a shell lying soulless in my driveway back home in san antonio :(
C - Candy: Reese's... I kill for Reese's

D - Day or night: Whoooo Whooooo... I am the epitome of the night owl
D - Dream Car: any thing that runs... preferably on that has a Dane Cook car alarm... "Helllooooo, I'm A Car, Gasoline makes me run, backseat, trunkspace..."

E- Easiest person to talk to?: Dorian Gray
E- Eggs: WTF? ummm.... disgusting...

F - Favorite Month: Does Winter count as a month??? if not... then december... lets see.. my birthday, the cold, christmas, the cold, the end of an awesome year, the cold, shall I name why Decembers an awesome month?
F - Favorite color(s): they change, but green stays constant... then blue and black
F - Favorite Memory: You

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Worms... I'm gonna have to say, I don't usually eat worms... they squirm too much... they look grody
G - Giver or taker: I'll take what you give, I'll give what you'll take

H - Hair Color: Red 5 with a hint of Vitamin B
H - Height: hmmm... does munchkin count as a measure
H - Happy: Sad, Empathetic, Ecstatic, Fantabulous, Pathetic.. oh... I thought we were naming stuff here...

I - Ice Cream: Oh god... i live for ice cream... when its cold outside... while sitting butt deep in a vat, yes a vat of snow
I - Instrument: The finger violin

J - Jewelry: what is the question here.... jewelry.... pants... underwear... computer... socks... do I like jewelry? what do I have? what kind am i wearing... whats the question?!?!?1
J - Job: Supreme Ruler of the 5th Quarter of the 9th Dimension
J - Jail: i find that spending as little time there as possible would be a much better use of my time

K - Kids: I like baby goats! they amuse me!
K - Kickboxing or Karate: Karate.. Spongebob Squarepants style
K - Kindergarten: Cop... Arnold Schwarzenator style... haha

L - Longest Car Ride: 8.9 seconds

M - Milk Flavor: flavor? my favorite milk flavor is... milk.. the flavor milk

M - Most missed person: Oh.... and the list begins
M - Movie: Everything I have yet to see

N - Number of Siblings: 457... in reality... 2... but I say 1
N - Number of Tattoos: Hmmmm... reality or dream
N - Name: Liadin

O - ONE WiSH: hmmm.... oh so much
O - One Phobia: phobia my dear Watson, it only exists in your mind, thus it does not exist at all

O - One regret: to live a life of regrets would be to undo all the patty melt moments, the taco sauce splatters, the goals in life, the crazy halloweens, the DDR parties, the karoake nights, the patty melts and banana walmarts, the chocolate covered starfish and roommate switches, the urban dictionary randomness and batcave madness, the study room lock ins and schlitterbahn hallucinations, the "you didn't think I was that fast" and "I'm a cat", "I'M AWAKE" and pointing-fingers-like-the-evil-monkey, the drunken kisses and BACK UP, the graham partying and running from cops, the crawling up stairs and falling up stairs, the pulling all nighters and keeping each other awake, the Fuzzy grapes and stuffed pepper corn applesauce, the lemon peppered butts and avoiding butler, the hitler mustaches and the rolling on the floor, the crazy videos and the stupid pictures, the charlied nights, the sinful moments, the passionate times, the fights, the laughs, the cries, the jokes, the good, the bad... thus.. regret is not a factor in my life

P- Pet Peeves: People who mock me, fake friends, liars, Ex Roommates
P- Part of your appearance you like best?: Idk... why obsess, but if I HAD to say, you twisted my arm and tortured this outta me, I would give in after 78.4 days without food when the dancing midgets were finally too much and tell you it was my eyes.
P- Part of your personality?: Truth

Q- Quote: "“As a lotus flower is born in water, grows in water and rises out of water to stand above it unsoiled, so I, born in the world, raised in the world having overcome the world, live unsoiled by the world” - Buddha
Q- Quick or Slow: ummm... I'm confused... so... I'm gonna go with the Turtle cause he wins the race

R - Reason to smile: Do we really need reasons
R - Reality TV Show: what are these? really? tv shows... i think not!
R- Reason to cry: bad change

S - Song Last Heard: Linger... the Cranberries... another reason to cry
S - Season: winter... basketball
S - Shoe: If its just a single shoe, then I love my boots... but only one at a time :)

T - Time you woke up: did i ever go to sleep?
T - Time Now: Willy Wonka time
T - Time for bed: when the world is constantly turning and opportunities keep whizzing by, you use whatever fleeting moments to catch your breathe and hope your life doesn't pass you by

U - U love someone: I love quite a few people
U - Unpredictable?: LOOK! A moth... but over there.. can I get a pj sandwich?
U - Underwear: should i look in my pants to check?

V - Vegetable you hate: Well... I find it very hard to hate sick people in hospitals... its even harder to hate those who are now considered "vegetables"... what horrible questions ;)
V - Vacation spot: Ireland, Greece, California, India, Australia, Japan, Russia... and the list goes on... lets just say.. hello World, I'm Priya... lets meet you

W- Worst Habits: being b$tchy
W- Where are you going to travel next?: wherever my dreams, books, and realities take me
W- Weather right now? stuffy with a side of sleepy

X - X-Rays: no thank you

Y - Year you were born: 1492... to bad Columbus was already here... him and his damn idiocy
Y - Year it is now: 3456
Y - Yellow: submarine

Z - Zoo Animal: hello.... penguins!

September 16, 2008
AND SUDDENLY... THE NOSTALGIA BEGINS (KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI)

I was sitting here at 4am, when I should be asleep, doing homework (yes, I am actually being
productive when I decided to take a break from my second all nighter in a row and facebook it up) when I suddenly had a heavy feeling of missing my family. And I'm not just talking about my mother and brother who i do miss, but everyone else in my family. Some of my relatives I have never met, others just once and I don't even remember their face, and others burn vivid in my mind's eye, but its been so long since i've seen them that I still see them as little 7 year old or waaaayyy older 18 year old... as I'm sure they remember me as little 4 year old, or little 9 year old, or finally at the ripe old age of... 12... My cousins have never seen me as an "adult" or experienced who I am as a person. And in all honesty, i don't know them. And that makes me sad. I look at my friends who visit their relatives a lot, either because they live in the same town or area (or in the case of one of my friends, pretty much all in the same neighborhood! haha) or because they are able to go visit them even if they are a little further away. But very few people know the feeling of having everyone in your family on the other sides of the world. New Zealand.. India... these aren't near places... and to go there is an experience in it self. One of my cousins, he got married this summer... could we go? nope. Was it even an option? nope... we don't have the kind of money to be buying tickets to New Zealand for a wedding, no matter how much you want to see your cousins and see his wedding and your aunts and uncles (especially when your favorite aunt is down there!). And last summer, my sister got married. Did we have any relatives there? Of course not. we don't have the kind of money to bring them over, and they don't have the kind of money to come over for a wedding. Its pretty upsetting to know that the people you love and have a stronger connection to you barely know. Ironic even, my friends look at their cousins and aunts and uncles, etc. as some sort of problem, but I, I feel a connection that I won't even sever with these people whom I technically barely know. But because this bright red blood that runs strong through our veins is so similar I have to keep this love alive.

August 25, 2008
YAY SCHOOL

Wait... did I just write that? I've been in school all summer and suddenly I'm still excited to be starting classes again? I must be outta my mind. Haha... Well anyway, just wanted to say good luck, have fun and be safe, especially all those out there who transferred and are starting at new places! ::cough cough KITTY cough cough::

March 8, 2008
MYSPACE V FACEBOOK

Ummm... okay... this application has probably been on facebook for forever, but I just happened to find it the other day... Oh.. it's the myspace application by the way...

So anyway, it lets me see my myspace from my facebook page. Yeah. It's just sitting there on my profile and i click and TADA! There is my myspace! My music, my top friends, my about me, my interests, my blurbs, my comments! Everything. Granted, the background is not there, but i can survive that.

Lets just say, the reason I had both a myspace and a facebook was because I liked having an expressive outlet (myspace) and an organized outlet (facebook). But now, facebook with all it's crazy applications, the only thing missing is a different background color. Which I don't even know, maybe there is an application that changes the color! Haha! But it was interesting to see my myspace like my original facebook. Simple, plain, and neat.

Actually, not really interesting, more like twisted. I mean, It's like they switched on me. Flip floped! And I saw it coming too... I mean, when facebook started that home page so you could see what everyone else was doing, that's when it all changed! Don't get me wrong, it doesn't really suck. I mean, I can JUST SAY NO to these applications, but it's addicting. I'm a facebook application nazi! Haha!

My myspace on my facebook... trippy

Just thought I would put that out theres

I've Been Secretly Falling Apart

2008-12-12T10:03:32Z

You'd Be So Perfect With Be....

I Look Up You're Standing Next To Me...

I feel like the whole world is buzzing in my head when I listen to these... I've found a love and his name is Aqualung... but I'm not just buying into the hype. Brighter Than Sunshine.. really, truly, will never change on my list... it's a toughie when I find a favorite, it won't change.

It's Easier To Lie

2008-12-12T09:53:48Z

So... finals are over. That's exciting. Gotta spend the break here in San Angelo because of my job. That's cool, I'm fine with that. Running out of self pep talks and feeling kinda crazy... i think I'm driving myself insane and in some ways pushing people away that I love... I keep trying to avoid the avoiding, because that's bad... and I do that often. Sometimes... people are too much for me... which is weird, because I crave social situations... but yet, somehow, the people I love and care about, and who love me and care about me are the ones I fear and push away the hardest.. sigh... I truly miss my friends. I haven't seen one bestie since like the beginning of summer and I really miss her. I feel like I've grown terribly far apart from her. I don't know what's going on in her life and sometimes I don't even know what to say to her except the usual mumbo jumbo... hi, how are you... i miss you... but what else can I say, I don't know much about her current life and she doesn't know much about my life. And its not like she's that far... I mean, in today's society, she's a phone call or a mouse click away... and yet... don't talk to her that much. And its missage major... And then there's my bestie back in sa town... Haven't really talked to her that much either... and I miss my mer mer.. I mean, i saw her the last time I was down, she came over and we had some fun. But I kinda let them just play games in Buttons room... and I was kinda a downer... why? idk... I just kinda wanted some space, which was weird cause I missed them soo much... but maybe it's cause it was my own house... I felt like just getting some needed rest, but even then... I really missed all of them.. and I sorta shunned them. Felt like a total bitch for it. And of course there's nic nic... she's like a 15 minute walk away from me... and I don't even see her that much. I mean, it's not all my fault on that one... she's got her whole boyfriend/now ex boyfriend situation going on... and she doesn't really answer when I call her all the time... But that's cause she's in class and whatever. I just miss her sooo much... we don't ever hang out or anything... I think I'm going to make it a point to bug her this break and next semester... but try as hard as I want, I usually just end up a homebody never going out anymore, or talking to anyone... sigh... and there's my gay bestie up in new york!I mean, I do talk to him sometimes, but usually its just major updates in our lives... and that doesn't happen that often... sigh... I need to be a better friend. And I'll try... but, there are never any promises...

PS. Love you all! And aqualung = Love major